_Languishing Before the Throne

It’s Tuesday morning right now. Just got up from bed. I wasn’t able to write for the past 3 days mainly because of my physical condition. I’m still recovering from sore eyes and dry cough (the same reason why I wasn’t able to see Luke and Craig off at the airport last Saturday).

Another reason why I haven’t written is because I was determined to truly pray again, if I haven’t accomplished that I will not write.

The Lord granted the yearning of my heart. Last night, the Lord drew me unto Himself. I was crushed and abased before Him, my sins laid out unto His feet. O what an abomination am I. Over and over again despising the Cross, the Throne, the blood that was shed, and the Spirit of Him who saved me.

And yet in the infinite depths of His grace, He brushed all that aside and said: “I know. I know how ugly, how detestable, how damnable you and your sins are… Now let’s talk about my Son. Let’s talk about how He is a perfect Savior for all who believes in Him. Let’s talk about how He ever intercedes with His blood before the throne for all those that are His.”

I spent hours languishing before God, begging for His grace and mercy, for myself, my family, my church… And all the people we have given out Gospel tracts to, 21,000 of them.

I pleaded with God: “Glorify yourself, O God! Glorify yourself in saving 20,000 souls! In saving my family and all those around me! Souls! Glorify yourself, dear God! For your own Name’s sake, please save these people! Glorify yourself! Cause us to live for Your glory and for Your glory alone. Make us holy as You are holy, conforming us in the image of Your Son! Oh, all for the glory of Your Name!”

The prayer never really ended. I just kept on pleading with God… I prayed myself to sleep.